This week has been emotional for this Momma!  Savanna tested in to a new gymnastics group, she moved up to a new dance class and she left the school she has been attending since she was 3 months old. That’s a lot to take in one week!

Leaving the school, though, was a lot harder than I anticipated.

I will never forget the first day I dropped Savanna off (December 17, 2013), I left my baby with basically strangers (I visited the school and interviewed the teachers that took care of the infants and the Director of the school) but basically strangers.  I cried all the way to work, which at the time was almost an hour and a half commute, and I called numerous times throughout the day to check on her.  It did get easier as she got older, and these women who took care of Savanna became my second family, my confidants, my counselors, and my friends.  Savanna made friends, which in turn, I made friends with their parents.  We attend each other’s birthday parties, we have play dates and we even have adult nights out together.  It has been nice, fun and comfortable.

What the heck was I thinking upsetting the apple cart??!!

I can’t say for sure that this is the right thing, changing schools (upsetting the apple cart) but I know for sure, I am grateful and thankful I found this school, these women (teachers) who have been there for us and Savanna’s friends and their parents who have become a part of our lives!  I know we will remain in each other’s lives, even if our kids grow out of their toddler friendships.

Savanna is growing up and change is inevitable.  We have been talking about her going to a new school and turning 5 soon, which she is unphased by…and actually is so excited about.  I tell her I don’t want her to grow up!  The other night I said to her, “I want you to stay young and cute like a baby” her response was, “I will always stay cute mommy!”  I busted out laughing!  Truth is, it is really hard to see her growing up, becoming the person she is and although I am SO proud of her, I don’t think I cherished and took the time to be in the moments over the past 4 years.  I just want to push pause…for just a moment…to just hold on a little longer and a little tighter.